Category: Creativity

It is the first day of the new year, and the first thing I want to send out is Love, Happiness, Wealth and Health to all those I know and all those I love.

2009 was a year in which my personal and creative life sort of switched rounds. I have always been blessed with the gift of creativity, but prior to 2009 I have squandered those talents away with years of meek ambition to go the traditional/safe route. Though I chose Creative Writing as my major in college, I can’t say that I have been very aggressive in my approach to anything really creative. But I made the decision to do more last year with the creative talents that I was blessed with. I was also very fortunate to have those in my life who supported me and help me nurture these talents. And in my personal life, I was never really a Don Juana (lol), but 2009 was the first year in which I can say I made decisions in relationships that I am ashamed of (though I’ve learned a lot from them). But 2010 proves to be a great year. Not only am I in this new realm of my life where the creative gods are being gracious to me, but 2009 has allowed me to grow and prioritize through those personal experiences.

This the turn of a new year as well as the turn of a decade, and I reflect on things, good and bad.

1. I will never have to say “what if” when it comes to those bad decisions.
2. I have learned about my capabilities as well as weaknesses within a relationship.
3. I have met new people who are very supportive as well as nurturing to my creative talents.
4. I have acquired knowledge of myself in terms of my needs and wants, both creatively and personally.
5. I am grateful for my continuously supportive family.
6. I recognize even more, the friends who are nearest and dearest to me.
7. And though this is selfish, what’s more important to me is that in the bit of creative growth that I have attained in 2009, I have set goals on ambitions for 2010 that I used to tuck away for the sake of safety.

2010 proves to be “the best year yet” (as I have been wished through mass New Year texts). It will be a year of chances and a year of continual growth and steadfast ambition. I’ll keep you up to date on the progress!

So, in talking about MY NEW DIVOGA (chair), there are a three things that I must talk about, because I think they are all related.

1. Procrastination
2. Motivation
3. The new FENG SHUI of my room

They say the road to recovery is admittance of a problem. So here goes.

Hello, I am a Procrastinator! Things that I want to achieve in the long run come second to things that I want to do right now.

This story of procrastination starts with me deciding on a whim to rearrange my room. Of course you can’t picture it if you haven’t seen my room, but that doesn’t matter. I came home and I just had to move my bed from the middle of my room to the corner. What matters is that this move caused another problem to further my procrastination. There was now a huge empty space where my bed used to be, and I was stuck on how to resolve this space. Rugs, new curtains, paint…Ikea, Home Depot, Office Max, Bed Bath and Beyond. I couldn’t think of anything that I felt secure about.

So bam! Fast forward to the following Sunday’s voice lesson with Mary Elizabeth Micari and she hands me a book. FENG SHUI IN 10 SIMPLE LESSONS by jANE bUTLER-bIGGS.

Now I didn’t read the book from cover to cover, but I took away a few simple helpful tips.

1. Colors matter.
2. Materials matter (what your furniture is made of).
3. It all comes down to the balance of chi/energy in your living space.

What this book really did for me was show me where the chi lied within my living space. I wanted my space to be motivational as well as calming. It turns out that my metal frame bed was suited for the northwest corner of my room (according to the Ba Gua chart this corner of my room governs guardian angels, helpful people and mentors and the late evening…I know, I know, Feng Shui is deep!)

So I decided that I wanted a red chair for my workspace/desk. Red, within the color range of Fire (one of the five elements including Water, Wood, Earth and Metal), motivates Action, Enlightenment, Self-esteem and Public status. And in being a procrastinator, I was hoping this red would light a fire under my a** to get some writing done. So I purchased MY NEW DIVOGA today and assembled it as soon as I got home.

Beaut ain’t he? Yes, he’s a he. 🙂 He even has a chrome base which, in the chart of elements, is supposed to motivate Order, Structure, Leisure and pleasure as well as Creativity. Did I pick a perfect chair, or did I pick a perfect chair? Now all I need is a green plant in the southeast corner of my room for prosperity! 😛

Now, so far, this has proven to be a good investment, because it is 1am, I have a 16 hour day tomorrow and I’m still up writing. Let’s hope this is a sign of good stories, poems, blogging to come.

Acting class teaches me how to approach life. I realize that I’m timid when it comes to apporaching situations within my life, and acting teachs me to always take center stage. It means having the courage to step out of myself to be someone else, and allow myself to enjoy it, and be good at it. I lack the courage to be great, as many people do, because we settle for being just at par, when we have the potential to be so much more. So I guess acting is teaching me courage. I fear being wrong, being judged, failing, which causes me to not take situations into my own hands. With acting, I fumble a lot in the beginning, and I am criticized and directed, but I still have to take a role, or a monologue and make it into something that’s worth watching and being.