Today

I started this post with the intention of posting on New Year’s Eve.  There’s the obvious precedent set that day–the day before the beginning of a new year where resolutions are finalized and we look back at the year passed.  It didn’t quite occur to me, until I started writing this post, that the new year was probably a trigger to my asking myself “am I being my best self?”  In the three weeks since then, there have been many days where the answer was “no.”  I tend to do a lot of looking forward and backwards, planning everydays and seeing where I went wrong or right with actions and decisions made.  This made me think of how much time I spend thinking of the future and the past, and how much time it takes away from my today.

In being present, we utilize our consciousness.  Of course there is planning and seeing how far we’ve have come.  But at some point it becomes a distraction.  We miss on what we should currently be doing in our lives to make it to that visualized point in the future.  We miss on building in the now, looking back at the things we have lost; not to mention the outside distractions within reach.  But if we are truly present, we are able to see that no matter what we have lost in the past, and no matter what we aim to gain in the future, they are only apparitions of time.  We have nothing more or less than what we have today.  Are you where you want to be, currently?  If all you had was what you had today, everyday, would it be enough to the end of your days?  

Experiences in my recent past has inspired more consistent writing.  Since then, I’ve found inspiration in myself.   Though immensely flawed, anxious and at times pessimistic, I love who I am today because I am writing.  Writing helps me stay present, by documenting my consciousness and at times making the past and future a part of the present.  It helps me find peace.

These post are just thoughts, opinions; a documentation of my consciousness unveiling over time.  But I hope that maybe this would help you be more present, more conscious, more thoughtful, more hopeful and more faithful.  Hopefully you will even more successful than I am in finding and following your path towards what you truly desire.  But the first step is taking stock of today.

What methods do you use to stay present?